Wednesday, July 20, 2016

June, 2016 Favorites

I often see people doing these kinds of things for makeup on youtube so I thought I would make my own list of things I've been liking this past June. ^^

1. Body Shop Satsuma Body Butter


I got this from a local Marshall's and it smells so nice! It's citrus so it's more energizing and it makes my hands feel so soft.

2. The Flash TV Series


Nuff said. I wrote a post all about how much I love this show. It even made me start watching DC animations, the most recent one being Young Justice which is also amazing. (*o*)

3. Bunny Wrist Rest


I found this baby in a Daiso store while in Seoul, Korea. I didn't think much of it at first, just that it would be interesting to try out. But it's proven to be wonderful and feels like a luxury cushion for my wrist.

4. Final Fantasy XIII-2


I bought this while it was on sale on the PlayStation Network. Long story short, I had some money in there from a game purchase mistake refund. I know this game gets a lot of heat from people but its replayability is kind of amazing. I've played this game maybe 3 times now and I like it more for the gameplay than the story.

5. Facial Masks


This is one of the things I bought a ton of in Korea. Mostly because of all the sales I see outside of shops. Some of them literally came out to only 48 cents per mask! That's too much of a steal to pass up. I've been using one everyday and I think it will last me 4 months. But my skin feels so much more moisturized since I started doing the daily sheet mask!

6. Mickey Mouse Sleeveless Shirt


It's been so hot these days and although it's brought some rain, the temperature has been steadily rising. I found this shirt while in Korea. I thought it was really cute and would make for comfortable lounge wear. ;)

7. This Bow Hairclip


This has been a really cute and nice thing to keep my hair out of my face. I've been growing my bangs out and this helps a lot and makes me feel kawaii. xP

8. Blueberries


We had this major sale of blueberries at the Farmer's Market for only 88 cents per container of blueberries! So we ended up eating a ton of blueberries this past June. I found they make a great healthy snack, just by itself.

9. BB Cushions


I just recently opened up to these things and I realize that they're actually really cool products. They make the application of foundation much cleaner and easier process. The first one I tried was my sister's Loreal Lumi Cushion and from there I branched out to other types. I might put up my own review in the future if I collect enough of these.

10. Seltzer Water


I find this a great alternative to soda. I never drank much soda to begin with but seltzer water is really good if you want something a bit more refreshing than plain water. I'm surprised how much I like seltzer water now because I didn't like it before. Maybe it's an acquired taste.


This monthly favorites thing is really fun! I hope whoever reads this enjoyed it too! (^o^) /''

My feelings during clinicals and how I deal with them

I just got my clinical assignment for my final semester of nursing school. When I look back, it seems like I've gone through a lot even though it hasn't even been 2 years yet.

This made me reflect on my previous clinical experiences and how I dealt with some feelings that would arise.

Clinicals can be anywhere from very fun to very stressful. Factors like who your clinical instructor is, the rapport between your peers, patients, the nurse you get assigned with for the day, and just your own personal threshold makes all the difference in the world.

First Semester

This was the semester where we all went to assisted living facilities for our clinical. This was the hard and dirty work for us. No passing medications, no full assessments (although we did some light assessing), and no true collaboration with nurses. It was much more about starting from rock bottom. Nurse aide work. That means building raw skills like feeding, toileting, bed baths, transporting, and light assessing.

How I felt: 

In all honesty, I didn't really feel much of anything besides just wanting to get my assignments done. Our school liked to pile on a lot of assignments for us during this semester's clinicals. I didn't have the best rapport with that particular group partially because it was the first semester so I didn't know everyone well and partially because of the people I was with.
 
How I dealt with it:

I focused on completing my assignments for that day. I think I could have done a better job planning things out. When you plan out as much as you can what you will be doing for the day, it makes the experience much less stressful because you know what you will be doing. Then you won't have those awkward moments standing around wondering what you should be doing and then at the end of the day, wish you worked more on that case study that's due in (blank) amount of weeks. You also have more focus and won't think or worry as much about peer relations because you'll be too focused on getting your shit done.

Second Semester

This is where things started to get more serious. We were now placed in hospitals and specialty care settings such as labor and delivery for our clinicals.

How I felt:

This was one of my lonelier semesters. Our peer group was divided because of a clique and mean gossip. My own solace was with two of my peers who also seemed to be ousted from the clique. Not saying all cliques that form are the worst ever, but this one would not let anyone else in. For example, at lunch, it was a known fact that our peers are encouraged to sit with each other. Our instructor was known to not always join us for lunch. What happened was the clique would purposefully get their food and sit at a table that was not easily seen by us. So when the rest of us were going to sit somewhere, we didn't know where they were sitting and would just sit among ourselves. It was kind of awkward, especially because in all of the clinical groups, we are encouraged to be like a team and sit together with our peers at lunch. It's weird because it's like giving a sign that they don't want to sit with us. It would be different if we were not expected to sit with each other but hey, team spirit~! and we were expected to. (-__-)

How I dealt with it:

The best thing I did was to just ignore the clique and stop trying so hard to befriend some of them. There was this one girl in the clique who always gave me negative vibes as if she just didn't like me. She even talked crap about me to someone she was sitting next to in class while I was sitting right across from her and could hear her every word. I tried to talk to her a couple of times during clinical just to be friendly but she never really responded, would give short curt answers and would never try to talk to me. Eventually, I just gave up trying to be friendly with her and only speak to her when necessary. One thing you learn in life is that no matter what you do, some people are just not going to like you, no matter how nice you are to them. It was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders after I stopped trying to get on better terms with someone unwilling to try them-self.

Luckily for me, all of the nurses were very nice and I never had a problem with any of them. They were all so helpful and didn't treat me like an outsider. That was a plus since the clinical peer group I was with wasn't so great. My clinical instructor was tough but in a constructive way. Many of the people in our group would complain about our instructor but I liked her and she was nice about trying to help me and I could understand why she was not the easiest.

Third Semester

This semester was better than the last. It wasn't nearly as isolating. One of the groups I was in was the best I ever had and will probably ever have and the other was so so. It's amazing what a difference it makes to your clinical experience when you have good relations with your clinical group. It can really make or break it. The clinical group I had for my mental health rotation got along really well and we had no problem talking with each other when we went to lunch or while we were out with patients. The clinical group for med/surg was okay but I didn't have the best affinity with them. Although they never really formed cliques, I would notice at times that I often ended up being the one who didn't interact as much as the rest of them (I could be wrong though).

How I felt: 

With my mental heath group, I had no problems with them and I really wish we could always be in the same group because we worked so amazing with each other.

With my med/surg group, although I did not have the best flow of conversation with them like my last group, we at least tried to get along with each other as best as we could and our instructor was good at keeping us together at lunch and helping with conversation. The nurses were okay but this time, I got a wider variety of them and they were all quite different. The only negative experience I can recall with a nurse was when she had a nursing student who was precepting (sort of like an intern) which basically made me the third wheel. I also didn't get along the best with this nurse. Sort of like that feeling where you just have different type of energy from that person which makes you kind of repel away from them. Anyway, it really sucked being a third wheel.

How I dealt with it:

In my med/surg peer group, I noticed that I put more effort to speak up during discussions so I would not become isolated and tried to be more involved. I would also try to focus on what I needed to get done for the day and do anything and everything to stay organized. That meant making a good 'brain' for myself when I gathered data on my patients and knowing what and when their medications were due. I would also make sure I had the phone number to the nurse I was assigned to and other useful phone numbers such as room service to help patients order food.

As for being a third wheel, I tried really hard not to get emotionally affected by it. Because even though I tried to think positive thoughts like "It's only because she's precepting, you don't have to feel this way, it's not any of your faults," it still hurt. I was basically ignored for the day and did not get any opportunities from that nurse even though I asked for them because the priority is the precepting student. Unfortunately, it didn't help when I tried to talk to my clinical instructor about it. I also tried and failed to get in on some conversation about dieting with that student and my nurse (my mistake since I honestly wasn't that interested or knowledgeable about the topic). This is not the best analogy but you know that feeling you get when your good friend is getting along better with some other person who is more similar to them in every way compared to you? It was like that. And even though I wasn't best buddies with my assigned nurse, it still hurt because I felt rejected. So what did I do that day? I put my full focus on my patients and doing my best for them. I think feeling connected to my patients helped to fill the void inside me that day.


I know this isn't what most people expect to hear about nursing clinicals. But it's my personal experience and hopefully, this could also help someone going through something similar.

Friday, July 15, 2016

Bittersweet

It's been about a couple of days since my Aunty left back for Hawaii. I miss her, though the feeling is not painful. We don't have any extended family where we live. So each time they visited us, I would always have that feeling of emptiness when they left. I would feel quite sad. But now, I don't feel that sadness. I actually have more of a bittersweet feeling.

I vividly remember my feelings when I was little, how I would silently cry on the car ride home after family get together's because I wished we could always be together. Who knew my feelings would have so much more meaning because after we moved away, we would not be able to attend those gatherings anymore. Our fate of growing farther apart would be inevitable.

I've grown accustomed to this feeling of loss. I try to look forward to the future. Instead of feeling like they've left us, I feel like they're just going home and we can look forward to their next visit or  my next visit to them.

Life is full of possibilities. The glass is not half empty, it's half full.

Why I love The Flash TV series (minor spoilers)


I'm so glad that I didn't discover The Flash until this summer... Because I binge watched both seasons.

I'll admit, The Flash is cheesy. But in a good way. I appreciate how the show doesn't take itself too seriously and is open to making jokes about themselves and other shows.

One of the main reasons why I got so hooked with The Flash is because it's lighthearted and has well developed characters, including their relationships with one another. The hero, Barry Allen is also quite easy on the eyes. ;)


I really like Barry as a hero because he doesn't conform to the outdated superhero trope where girls don't see him as desirable just because he's a little awkward and nerdy. Sure, he can't seem to get the girl he loves to give him a second glance, but he's also handsome and attractive not just because of his appearance, but because of his intelligence and good heart. He doesn't have this Peter Parker syndrome where girls avoid him as if he isn't desirable, because he is. Smart, kind, and nerdy guys are sexy now.

Overall, I am happy with Grant Gustin portraying Flash. At first, I wasn't too sure about it after watching him being such a jerk on Glee but he really shines as The Flash. His acting is great and with all these Flash tears (as I like to call them), and he has been doing a spot on job at acting it out genuinely.


Going back to nerdy guys being sexy, this also applies to my other favorite character Cisco Ramon, portrayed by Carlos Valdez.


I think Carlos Valdez really made this role his own. His character is different from the original comics but since I don't read the comics, I wasn't particularly bothered by this change. In The Flash (TV series), Cisco Ramon is the quick witted, cheeky scientist who works at Star Labs.

If what I say doesn't convince people to start watching this series, Cisco's funny quotes just might.


One of the things The Flash does best is developing its characters. So, there really isn't a character I truly hate, including the villains. Even the villain from the first season was forgiven for their strange motivations because of how well everything built up to the end, in my opinion.

There's talk about how Iris West and her family were race-bent but I really don't see the significance in that so I'm not going to talk about it.


I think Iris West portrayed by Candice Patton is super pretty and gives her character a lot of strength and virtue. Although, I'm annoyed with the writers for giving her this damsel in distress syndrome during the first season. Very out of character, she would refuse to listen to people when they were trying to keep her out of danger when her character is obviously intelligent. Someone would think she could see the idiocy in her actions. I feel it's out of place that she acted ridiculously stubborn and short-sighted. This is something I blame the writers for.

I won't talk about all the character relationships but I will mention how I love the frenemy relationship that eventually blossoms between Cisco and Dr. Wells.


In the meantime, I will be occupying myself with DC animations because I can't find another live action superhero show like The Flash. Just a few more months until season 3....

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Lazy days

It's been a damn long time since I've written a true, from the heart blog post. So, I'm going back to the traditional way: pencil and paper. Maybe the writing will flow better if I write out my blog post first in a rough draft and then type it out.

I think I've been going through a lot of summer laziness. At the beginning of the summer after 3rd semester ended, I was so ambitious with plans of study schedules and aiming to make myself productive. But after my trip to Seoul, I just kind of lazed out. I don't have much of a desire to study during the summer (I mean, who does?). I try but it hasn't been working out too well. Inside, my mind is just done. It's literally telling me, "screw time tables!" I'm sure part of the problem is internet access, catching up on tons of TV shows/movies, and my recent purchase of FFXIII-2. (- . - ;;)

Today was pretty chill. Grams went out on a senior excursion to a wildlife reserve and that left me to have the house to myself. Other family members were either at work or doing other things out of the house. I went around and took some pictures of cute plants mom recently bought.

This one's the cutest imo ^^

This one looks kind of tropical..
 And I hung out with Scruffs. House buddy for life!


Later in the evening, mom and I went to eat out and we chose this Vietnamese pho restaurant that I really should appreciate more because that pho was awesome! (* 0 * ) It was so good.. The best pho I've had in a while.

Chicken pho
Perhaps it was due to me being really hungry but anyway... it was very delicious. :9

A recent purchase of mine that I'm really happy about are these sketchers flats I got at Marshall's.

These shoes are so comfy!
A new Marshall's opened up near our house this summer. They have a lot of fun goodies. Especially in the skincare/beauty section. They even have international products! I was surprised to see a cosmetic from Holika Holika.