Thursday, April 28, 2011

Finishing up this semester

I feel pretty happy today since I finished almost everything I told myself I would do. I had a lot of library books from my last speech's research to return so I went to two different libraries to return them. Yep, I do lots of research..., lol

Then I almost finished my self/peer evaluation for our most recent speeches during my break which is cool because that stuff can take a long time. Sooo I'm really close to finishing that. Just one peer evaluation left. I even finished the extra credit assignment, yaa!

What's left is studying for my next bio exam and finishing up the bio take home exam. Our teacher is being really cool about it because she gave us the exam today, and is even going to take questions on it for next week if we finish early and have questions.

I'm gonna aim for the 100, I don't care if she says hardly anyone gets it for this take home exam. I don't know why, but I've been aiming a lot higher for grades these days and my expectations of myself is a lot more too. I don't remember being this way a couple years back. It's amazing how such little time can change a person so much. Maybe I get it from my mom, since she was an obsessive perfectionist during her school years when she was getting her nursing degree through her bachelor's. She told me that I shouldn't be a perfectionist but I can't help it; I want to have high expectations of myself because it's like a personal test. I want to put in the extreme best of my abilities or I'll be that much farther away from knowing what I "could have" accomplished. I used to have that feeling quite often during my time taking lots of art classes. I couldn't focus my creative energies to the best possible level and then when I turned in an assignment, I would have this sick feeling that I could have done so much better and then feel like crap about myself. Maybe this is my mind's way of protecting itself from having this feeling again. So far I've gotten A's in all my classes (although I have only two so it is expected).

And a word of advice, in any kind of science class, it's always good to be detail oriented, humble and willing to learn about the subject, and careful. That's how you get your A's in almost everything. Or course, you have to know how to study right but that's why you ask questions if you don't understand something and make sure you got your facts straight. A lot has to do with understanding the big picture. If you can get the overall gist of something, you can dissect it and understand the smaller parts. Or vice versa, whichever is easier for you.

So yes, I shall be working on that bio take home exam, probably tomorrow since I don't have much else better to do. It's good to make use of that 'boredom' time before I possibly get distracted by something more interesting.

For example, I recently got addicted to Soul Eater..( ^ v ^ )

... and I was watching it for at least 2-3 eps in a row a few days ago. But my 'new anime high' has stabilized so it's not like I have to watch it every single day.

This anime was a really pleasant surprise when I first viewed it. Honestly, I didn't think I'd be that interested; I was thinking that this might be like some Naruto flick but it proved to be really different and surprisingly, I liked it! All the characters are really cool. That's the word for this anime, COOOOOOOOOOOOL (*insider joke, Soul's thoughts exactly.) This is a really funny anime too so you should watch it for it's 'coolness' and humor. It makes me laugh on many occasions. I would say that it proves to be a lot, if not, even more funny than School Rumble. Maybe it's because there's so much more to the story of Soul Eater and the character's personalities are even more crazy and 3-dimensional. The story can get pretty deep, and included are some hella awesome fight scenes; Therefore, it has a great balance of drama, comedy, and action. The animation also has a simplistic, somewhat graffitti-like style so it's fun to watch since it's so different from the usual anime designs. With its simplistic art style comes some crazy fight scenes are devishly cool btw~!

This all makes me think about hurrying up and finishing the semester. I might go on a trip soon after before all the other kiddies get out of school and the flights fill up. ^^ Gotta take advantage of the extra time and visit some fam in other states.

When I think about it, my makeup style today was really good. Usually the makeup smudges during the day but I think I may have finally created a look that is 'almost' smudge proof ('almost' because I don't think there's any makeup that doesn't ever smudge). It was pretty flawless although the falsies I put on the bottom of one of my eyes was annoying me for most of the day. I think I may have put too much adhesive on one of them so it kept sticking to my upper lashes every so often on the corner. Sorry, sounds so gross but it really annoyed me. Gotta make sure to put that shit on right or else I'll have a crappy time for the rest of the day. -___-

It took a lot of camwhore pics this morning and I'd post a pic but I would still like to keep this account at least somewhat private. I'll be posting a pic of the cool ninja jacket I wore on a different post anyway. ;P

The makeup was honestly really perfect. I'm gonna list the steps I did to get this Japanese/Korean inspired look:

1.) I wore organic Jason organic sunscreen (this formula was a fairly thin consistency so it wasn't oily)
2.) Put on some compact Missha BB cream
3.) Dusted on some translucent powder
4.) Covered up imperfections with concealer
5.) Put on some light brown eye shadow and highlighted the brow bone and the center lid
6.) Lined the bottom of my eyes with the same light brown eyeshadow
7.) Lined & tight-lined the top my eyes with the Revlon Color Stay eye marker
8.) Put on the top falsies
9.) Put on the bottom falsies
10.) Put on some Pearl Drop liquid glitter liner on the inner corners and under my eyes
11.) Put on some EOS lip balm and then added some pink lip tint.

It was so perfect! I know I'm no ulzzang but I really felt like one! lol
I probably would have added some bronzer and contoured my nose and along the sides of my face and maybe along my forehead but it was really hot today and didn't want to make the makeup too cakey. It can get really nasty if there's too much.

I like this look because it puts a lot of emphasis on the perfection of the skin which I love because if you're skin looks good, you usually look good. The eyes weren't too flashy since the eye shadow was so simple and natural. For the eyeshadow, I was inspired by the generic Japan eye makeup look where they usually use brown eyeshadow. The glitter on the underside added a bit of pop but it wasn't too much, it's just white translucent glitter.

I call the look Japanese AND Korean inspired because although the look appears a lot more Korean, it isn't really that natural-looking as I used bottom lashes and a distinct, colored eyeshadow for the tops and bottoms of my eye lids whereas the more popular Korean ulzzang looks don't make use of eyeshadows and if they do, just use a very light shimmer. They don't really seem to use the fake bottom lashes.

When I think about it, both Korean and Japanese can potentially use a lot of makeup for their looks but the Japanese look is a lot more flashy with their unnatural-ness while the Korean ulzzang look can possibly be, decievingly natural-looking. xP

Monday, April 25, 2011

Do I have a vulgar sense of humor? YES I DO-!!!

I love Gloria. She never fails to make me laugh with her vulgar sense of humor. I don't think of myself as an outwardly vulgar person, but this stuff is amusing to me for whatever reason. Maybe it's like that forbidden fruit complex...

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Tons of Anime!!!!!!!!!! thanks to Netflix

About a couple months ago, I discovered the amazing power of Netflix. I just love the thing! You would think that this would make me want to watch more TV and sit on my ass all day but it doesn't! I'm not much of a TV person to begin with anyway but I don't think that's the only reason. Even my brother who likes to watch a lot of TV doesn't watch for very long.

I think it has to do with anticipation or whatever. Like, when you watch cable television, you don't really know exactly what is coming up next and so you have to wait through all these commercials to watch what you want. Maybe it's that. It's weird but that's what I really think is going on. So then people spend hours and hours in front of the TV because they waste so much time waiting for their shows by watching mostly useless commercials. Netflix has no commercials so that's one reason why it totally pwns cable television.

With Netflix, I found a lot of... dun, dun, duuuuuuuuuuuuuuun! A-N-I-M-E! Yes, I am such a nerd but I still love anime. I don't know, I think watching them makes me want to be a better person? lol Or maybe it just makes me laugh.. I found a lot that I would possibly want to watch so I added them to my instant queue. But if I put to many on the queue, I have to sift through that much more crap before I find the good ones. It takes a lot of patience with some anime.

Hell Girl: I was sort of interested with the first couple episodes but after those, I started to see the same old pattern, with just slightly tweaked stories. I got really bored and even Karyn did so we both stopped watching that one.

As for the good anime I got the privilege of watching, I finally got to see FMA Brotherhood and School Rumble~!

I didn't think I would like watching Brotherhood since I made a bias opinion when I first saw promo pictures and thought the character designs weren't that great. But then I watched it and they looked way different than the promo pics! (*That teaches me yet again not to judge a book by its cover..) The animation was also amazing with so much detail in the hand drawn aspects of it. You can literally see the outlines of the characters and everything is really sharp and clear.

I was happy since I could watch the English dubs (sometimes it's easier for me to not have to worry about subtitles and instead listen and focus on the animation). I especially think Edward's voice in English fits really well too. His voice actor has great emotion when he does the voice overs which I dearly appreciate because the whole anime is a huge swirl of human morals, ethics, and emotions. Colonel Mustang also has quite a sexy voice, so commanding! lol And I'm not just saying the voice fits because I've only watched it in English. I've heard some really bad English dubs before so I promise I'm not being completely biased. Anime's where I think have the best English cast would probably be Tenchi Muyo!, Trigun, Fruits Basket, and School Rumble.

Speaking of School Rumble, it is yet another anime that I was introduced to through the wonderful Netflix. I would describe it as a much funnier version of Fruits Basket (which I also love btw). I think School Rumble gets to the point a lot faster though, part of this being because the original manga is shounen. Most shounen manga seem to be that way. The story moves faster compared to shoujo manga where the plot can go on about emotional stuff forEVER.

I'm already in love with all the characters for this anime, my favorite probably being Harima (tall dude with the shades). It's cool because the story takes you through the lives of all the side characters too. I don't think many anime's do that. School Rumble is a really cute, hilarious and so far, lighthearted story that you can enjoy to take the stress off your day. The animation is very nice and pleasant to watch with some hilarious 3D scenes that pop up now and then. And I promise that these 3D scenes are used in the best possible way. This is a comedy so it fits, you know?

And there's so much more on the instant queue that I haven't gotten to yet!!! They're mostly anime, yes but there's also some TV shows like Heroes, Ugly Betty, etc.

I got to watch a lot of interesting documentaries too. I recently watched one on the dam that's being built on the Yangze River which is really sad because it's costing so many people their homes but the Chinese government doesn't do anything to help these people.

The most recent I've watched was this documentary on Japanese male host cafes called "The Great Happiness Space." The documentary goes over the daily lives of the hosts at Rakkyo Cafe which was said to be the number 1 host bar in Osaka. I thought that it was also sad because what we see on the surface is nothing like what we would have thought it was. Like a lot of things in Japan, it's a fantasy on the surface that's covering something much darker below.

It's amazing how much a person can learn from Netflix if they use it accordingly. I've watched a lot of nature shows, documentaries, and independent films that really opened my eyes to our wordly problems and issues. There was also this one on North Korea that I found so interesting. I really don't like their leader now that I've watched it.

So there! I'm not only watching anime on Netflix. >.< ..................... but it IS mostly anime. lolz

Maybe I'll write another post or two if I feel inspired. There's a lot of stuff I still have yet to watch on Netflix. The ones I mentioned are the most current.

Fixing up my roooom!

Wooooohooooooooo!!! I finally rearranged the furniture in my room-! I'm super happy with the arrangement.

My room seems to have so much more space in it. It's amazing what moving just a few things can do! Maybe now I can fit a low table in the center. I've been thinking of doing that just so I can enjoy a cup of tea in the comfort of my own room with the cool summer breeze blowing through the window.... And maybe work on school stuff xP. I'll have to find a table that would fit but that's a project for later.

Can you see the middle space? It's so amazing, I don't remember having so much space in the middle of my room before!

I worked with my mom a couple of nights back on my blanket cover. I'm so happy with it. I wanted the cover to have white on one side and some other color/print on the other. It worked out just like I wanted which is awesome because we don't always get our way in life. So when we do, it's an amazing feeling. x3
It was nice working on a project with my mom. Many kids these days have to learn that you can gain so much knowledge by simply listening to your parents and elders. I learned a bit more about sewing from my mom that night. I think sewing is a great skill to have later in life just in case I rip some clothes or need to hem stuff. And then I can make covers for pillows and blankets. :D I also learned about how much work and effort it takes to make one blanket cover. I was exhausted after we finished and crashed out on my bed soon after.

I also shopped at Sears for the first time and surprisingly, I really liked a lot of their clothing selection. Now my closet doesn't seem so empty anymore. I remember looking at a previous post and I was showing a picture of how I organized my closet. Omg, the closet was so sparse, so embarrassing! In the past, I would always have the problem of not having enough clothes for work or school. Now I never have that issue. Thank my lucky stars I found a good place to get affordable clothes. Sears has a lot of good sales. The only thing is that so many of their clothes seem like they're for skinny people because a medium size for certain things is really small. Don't matter to me though since I'm trying to lose more weight anyway and their clothes fit me alright since I'm small to begin with I guess..

Speaking of clothes, I've also been buying from yesstyle. I usually get jackets from their site because their stuff is TAKAI. Especially for a simple blouse where you can get it so much cheaper at Ross or even secondhand at a thrift store. I'm trying to be more resourceful and economical with clothes these days and get whatever I can in clothes from thrift stores. I do have certain things where I draw that line though. For example, I won't buy underwear, socks, or shoes from thrift stores. Sorry, I just can't do that.. But I don't think I've ever seen underwear sold at a thrift store anyway. Perhaps no one wants to buy underwear at thrift stores so they don't sell them. lol It's pretty nasty if you think about it.

Below is a couple jackets I've bought from yesstyle. I get my jackets from there because I can never seem to find a cool jacket like theirs anywhere else where I live. Jackets are my new clothing obsession. ^^

[will post picture later]

Last but not least, some cutesy stuff at the head of my bed.

Don't you just love how Rilakkuma makes you wanna sit on your ass and do nothing all day? lol

My pillowpet dust collector (and I say that in the most endearing way possible) can 'borrow' my glasses while I sleep and look so intelligent. o-o

Kakigori time!!!

This past Wednesday, I finally got my kakigori ice shaver in the mail~! ^o^
I bought it on Amazon for $25. I really don't care if it was a rip off or not. There's no place anywhere near my house where I could have bought this and I couldn't seem to find it anywhere online. u.u
I found it through lafujimama so I'll have to trust her sources.

I'm really excited to finally use the ichigo kakigori recipe that lafujimama posted on her blog. She is awesome for sharing that info because I don't know when I would have gotten the idea to make cream ice.

I've eaten it before at an awesome yogurt cafe but didn't really know how to make that kind of sweet ice. I found out later that it was sweetened condensed milk. They put cream/milk ice on the bottom, pile on fresh fruits, and put a big swirl of their original yogurt on top. It's soooooo yummy!! I wanna go back now... can't wait until the summer where it will be really hot outside. The yogurt will be so refreshing on that day. I just hate it because the distance to get there is far. Depending on the traffic, it can take anywhere from 20 min to an hour. It's all due to chance and timing. Wish we had one closer to our house but like most states, all the action takes place in downtown or in the south... -__-

Isn't it just beautiful?

I wish I could make yogurt like they do at that place... It's so delicious and their original yogurt flavor is perfect. I've never tasted original yogurt that good with the perfect balance of tart and slight cream flavor. They say their yogurt is non-fat tho so I dunno; If it really is non fat, it's amazing that their yogurt can still have that creamy taste.

Before we left, mom wanted to try one of the smoothies so she got this mango one with boba. It was actually pretty good. It tasted more natural and not like the crappy artificial tasting mango smoothies. The girl made it super fast too. It was like we were at a fast food place but it wasn't fast food. o_O

Monday, April 11, 2011

Cute Apple Pie

Now I know why I haven't been posting any pics in so long. It's because I accidentally put my camera cord in a box that I stashed away up high in my closet.. Of course it's the last place I look. D:
I must have been in denial.

So the latest and greatest, I finally baked an apple pie from scratch! Even the filling! Yay~!!!

I tried my best with the cross hatch thing on the top of the pie. It seemed difficult at first but it really isn't. I subscribe so some awesome cooking gurus and this recipe was by this Japanese guy. His username is runnyrunny999.. I think his name is contradictory to his videos, you know, the word runny doesn't make me think of anything pleasant. Buuuuuuuuuuuut anyway! Back to the main topic, I think his recipes are awesome; simple yet aesthetically pleasing.

More detail of the crosshatch. I added beaten egg yolks on the top to get that crispy brown color. Should have added more egg yolk... damn.

I haven't tasted it yet, (omg right?) but I'll probably eat it tomorrow. I'm just so full today! It's messed up since I had too much pizza so I have no urge to eat anything else now. And I worked so hard to make this pie!!!! It smelt good though.

This pie was actually a really laid back process. I refrigerated the flour and butter, rolled it, put it back in for an hour, rolled it again, and put it back in the fridge for another 25 minutes. It was fun using a wooden roller after all these years. xP

Making the apple filling was cool too because I got to see osmosis in real time action! lol Pouring sugar on apples and heating it in the frying pan takes out a lot of water from the apples.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Sometimes I wish I just didn't care.......but...

I find it kind of weird that I have so much psychological stuff going on in my head but I don't even have a label for it.

I thought it would be a good idea to write about things like feelings sometimes because maybe if someone else has the same issue, they can read this and think, hey, I'm not the only one feeling this. Sort of a kinsmanship kind of thing. Omg, so cheesey but whatever! Lets get rollin'!

Hopefully this won't sound stupid but even if this may seem like a small issue, lots of these issues combined can make a bigger issue. (wtf too many 'issues'...)

So I'm in a class and there's this girl at our table who is senior to the rest of us by at least 5 years. I knew from the very beginning that she was a somewhat controlling person. I usually make character psychoanalysis's at the very beginning of every class for most of my classmates that I see or converse with, of course, they are all hypothetical/theoretical since I don't know them on a personal level but at least, at a basic level, I deduce that this is what they are.

This girl was in the Army so she is rather worldly. I can understand that. I'm a fairly naive person when it comes to certain things about the world like politics for one.

Back to the point, I noticed that from the beginning of the semester till now, every time I would say something even slightly naive about the topic she is talking about, it could be the simplest comment, it seemed like she took enjoyment in taunting my knowledge of the subject. I can understand people having a friendly laugh over it but she takes it a step further and makes remarks like "Wow! You ACTUALLY didn't know that?!!!" or "I can't believe you didn't get the joke!!!"

After careful observation, she's the only one at our table who says stuff like this along with laughing at me.. I don't really know what to say back as everyone around is laughing as if it's all just a 'friendly joke'.

I guess what she really doesn't get is that she's indirectly making me look like a fool in front of everyone at our table either to make herself look better or...... well, it's pretty much just that. Exploiting the power she has in the situation to make herself seem so KNOWLEDGEABLE about something that someone else may have never heard of in their life.

I'm not stupid. I know that I get the best scores on exams and tests and pretty much everything else compared to all the people who sit with us. And it's not because I'm the most knowledgeable or smart, but because I'm the most humble and careful out of all of us at the table. This is a skill that I have learned from years of experience.

It's really bad to be cocky and arrogant, especially in school. This makes one careless and miss a lot of stupid things on exams and tests and think that they can relax and play and not study when they actually should. It makes them look down on others like they are the most clever person in the world. I have been this person, sadly to say, but I have NEVER made anyone feel lesser than they really are. I just had mean thoughts in my head. As I got older, I realized that I should stop thinking this way and my grades improved exponentially, because I had a much better attitude towards school, others, and most of all, myself.

This girl that I'm talking about seems to be overconfident and likes to ridicule others for not knowing random information that she ASSUMES everyone else should know. I don't know if she is consciously doing this but it's starting to get on my nerves.

I'm an honest person who speaks my mind if I don't understand something. I've figured that people who put others down, directly or indirectly, are either insecure, or have power issues, probably both since the two are so interrelated.

As you can probably see, I analyze things very deeply. I don't know why but I just can't help it. I love, love, love the details. Maybe that's why anything creatively inclined interests me so much.

I really wish I didn't care sometimes because then my brain could rest and not worry about stupid things like this with a person that I'll probably never see again.

... but then I think about why I even have this blogger and that its purpose is for me to spill out all of my feelings so they can leave my mind for good and help me realize what really matters in life.

I shouldn't care about these people who shoot others down for simple questioning. It's good to question as that's how one learns about the truths in life.

So my word of advice to anyone out there with this kind of issue, forget what people say about your naivety in the world because they are the ones who are truly naive and need to learn something:

A person cannot learn anything new in the world if they do not have the courage to seek it out.