Funny how life can get so busy in mere seconds

-
It's almost the end of the semester and I'm so happy since I'll be over with these classes that I've been sticking it out with (since I had changed my major a couple months back).

But now, I have to focus on getting a 'career' entry job which will take me some time. Finding a job is a job in itself... -__-
I'll probably have to focus on financial aid too so that kind of sucks. I like to pay off my debts at the moment. I'm sure many people hate the feeling of something hanging over their head all the time.

All of this extra stuff I have to do is interlinked with the career in question that I changed to. I'm sure that it will be a good idea this time to actually get a job in the related field to get a more clear idea of the job itself. That was my mistake with what I had been doing for these past two years. Although I'm happy that I can at least get an associates degree for all the time I put into it.

I hear other students telling me that it's common for major changes in uni but I still feel shitty about the whole ordeal. I feel so fortunate to have a supporting family. I just wish I were smarter in the beginning. I'm not sure how it "could have been" if this or that happened before. I don't like to think about the past.. I just want to focus on the future. I think it's hard sometimes because my parents might bring up mistakes I've made before. They're probably trying to prevent me from making these mistakes again but bringing up shit from the past just makes me feel depressed and unmotivated. Sort of working against what it's meant to do...

Anyway, I'm just gonna continue to stick this mothafucka out and finish the semester. Although I'll try to job hunt in-between.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Anime Food!: Brock's Cream Stew

-
Image
Hello again!  My apologies for taking so long to make another 'Anime Food' post.  Enjoy! During my childhood days of watching Pokemon, I would often see Brock cooking this white stew thing.  It would look so yummy but I had no idea what it was..  And even though my entire family and extended family was Japanese, none of them ever made something like this.  (T__T)  The closest thing I got was corn chowder. Only recently did I discover that it's called cream stew and luckily, it's quite the easy recipe. ^^ I remember the very first time I made this.  I used a cream stew mix pack from the store (the one that has the blocks that you melt in the pot).  That turned out pretty bad so I highly recommend people make this one from scratch.  It's really does taste so much better this way.  I'm lazy so instead of having the pretty diced pieces of carrot, I threw in some baby carrots.  XD Close up ;3 I found this recipe ...
Read more

Why does Lightning look so different in FFXIII Lightning Returns? [SPOILERS-!]

-
Image
I finally finished the game Lightning Returns recently and zomg, why does her face look so different?  I mean, she looks like she got plastic surgery. Before I begin, I'd like to point out that I am not criticizing the game in its entirety.  This is solely about the change in Lightning's hair and facial design.  The game play of Lightning Returns has nothing to do with this. :) I didn't really notice her face change until I beat the game and watched the ending CG animation scene.  (pic above is from the opening CG scene) I was a bit disappointed that the animators weren't consistent in her facial design, especially when it was so beautiful to begin with. Here's some compare/contrast pics I found. This one is of the CG animation for FFXIII, FFXIII-2, and FFXIII Lightning Returns. And here's the cutscene animation.  It's a bit more difficult to tell the difference in the cutscene animation unless you look closely. The hair...
Read more

I dyed my hurr!: Kao Liese Bubble Hair Color, Milk Tea Brown

-
Image
Don't make fun of my fingers, I already know they're short and fat! lol My hair is really stubborn.  No matter what hair dye I use to lighten it, the results are almost always the same.  Even when my hair is already lightened, it somehow still manages to retain that same coppery brown color... In this case, I seemed to have gotten the 'generic' result for "Dark color hair..." I dyed my virgin Asian black/dark brown hair and here are the results:   Window lighting. (Somehow this always alters the color)  Indirect daylight lighting  Bathroom lighting Box color to actual hair comparison in low light.  Seems like it was right after all.  xP On an everyday basis, my hair color looks like a cross between window lighting and indirect daylight lighting. I was honestly freaked out at first because my hair initially looked like it was slightly bleached orange.  But after a few days, it darkened down to what i...
Read more