What should I do with my life?

I'm sure most people ask themselves this question at some point in their lifetime.  Hell, they might ask this question all the time.

As for me, I'm still in my 20's and it's proven to be one of my most lost and confusing years.

I've been in school literally around 4-5 years and still haven't gotten a bachelor's from it.  I feel lucky to have somehow put together an Associates degree.

When I think back, I feel like I've been spending a lot of time running around aimlessly, unsure of where I'm going or why I'm doing this.

It's nice to say that I haven't spent every waking moment lost and confused but I still feel that a lot of time was spent experimenting with no real direction.

I think the only good thing I got out of this was that I learned so much about myself that I probably never could have learned in other ways...  Which is actually quite a great thing but not so much in the eyes of society.

At this moment, I'm reminiscing a lot more because I've recently gotten a clearer idea of how long it will take me to get into this nursing program that I've been on a waitlist for.

I got an email from the adviser telling us about transcripts and making sure they're correct.  I emailed her back asking some questions like what my waitlist number is.  She replied right away and even had my waitlist number.  After calculating, I found that it could possibly take another year or two before I can get into that program.  O _ o

So far, I've been waiting for a little over a year and thinking about waiting another possible 1-2 years is starting to make me wonder what I should do during that time.

I want to do something meaningful with my life but I really don't know what.  In a way, this is a really great opportunity to do something interesting and fun before I'm crushed under the weight of books and studies.

I know a ton of people who look at the waiting time and see the horror before them.  But I don't want to think that way.  I want to look at this so called 'problem' and find the good in it, maybe even not see it as a problem at all.  Thinking negative never gets me anywhere so I'm going to attempt to think positive about this!

 

There's so many things I could do during that time, it's hard for my mind to come up with ideas...

Should I go on an international trip?

Should I volunteer somewhere? (Oh wait, I already am at a hospital, Woot! :D)

Should I take up a new hobby?

Should I improve my art skills?

Should I learn a new skill?

Should I read more educational books?

There's so many possibilities that await me with all that time before I dedicate my life to this profession I'm getting into.  It's quite exciting but also overwhelming with all the possible things I could do.  I really want to do something that will help me to grow as a person.  I think going on an international trip on my own or with a sibling would be most rewarding.  I'm a little scared to go on my own, but I think it could prove to be good for me to learn some real independence.

I've always wanted to visit England since I've already been blessed and lucky enough to go to Japan and Korea (even though I would love to go to those places again and again forever).  I'll have to wait and see.

Hopefully you all aren't as lost as I was, or... maybe still am?  I feel as if I've somehow found direction again with nursing because it's something that's solidified in my life's timeline.  But after nursing school is over, I'm sure I'll lose what direction I had again and have to find a new direction.  That's why I feel like a lot of people in this life, even though they don't admit it, will always be lost at some point and ask themselves what their purpose is; They'll always have to find a new way to go after they've walked the last road they took.